I've been eating nothing but crap since last weekend but I'm getting back on track slowly.
- Breakfast: shake with mango silk
- Snack: green apple
- Lunch: Greek salad from Sandella's and a small bag of Mrs.Vicky's salt and vinegar chips and a filled cookie for dessert
- Snack: fell into temptation and had another filled cookie, darn you Eve
- Dinner: Sandella's Turkey & Bacon wrap with Mrs. Vicky's salt and vinegar chips
Been feeling discouraged lately to do pretty much anything, although I feel the urge to. I'm not really sure what it is.
Side bar, I've always kinda wondered if I had a gluten allergy or sensitivity. It started when I was in Austria (Spring 2011). For about 2 months in the beginning, everything I ate made me feel sick, I was sluggish, had headaches, bloated, etc. I've felt that way for a long time now, especially lately and I'm starting to wonder again. Idk, whatevs.
All I know is that I'm tired of being a lazy bitch. I need to start taking better care of myself. I have absolutely no reason to be lazy and not follow my diet. I have an addiction to food. Salty, sweet, super fattening food. It's so delicious but so horrible for my body and I know I need to break this addiction.
I'm going to try to follow my diet this weekend, even though I know it will be hard because of the youth conference, but it's the last one so that's bueno.
Also, if you have any prayer intentions let me know, I'll use those as inspiration and offer them up during the day when I'm feeling discouraged.
Some inspiration to hold on to:
"With your help, as long as there is strength in us, we will fight to the last breath, so help us O Queen, O Lady, O Best and Dearest Mother"-St. Maximilian Kolbe
I CAN DO THIS! I WILL DO THIS!
Just keep trying girlfriend!! It doesn't matter how many times we fall, it matters how many times we get back up!! (Just to add some cliche encouragement) I would love if you could pray for an increase in purity for me (:
ReplyDeleteThanks sister<3
If you could pray for my older brother that would be awesome :)
ReplyDeleteHey, Michelle! (It rocks to be named after St. Mike, right?)
ReplyDeleteGot a special favor to ask: please, please, please try not to beat yourself up. That's not the go-ahead to make excuses, but in a way, excuse-making can be a symptom of putting ourselves and our nutrition in a box, and then beating ourselves up when we fail to live up to our unreasonable expectations.
As I mentioned on Facebook, I'm a Weight Watchers' Lifetime Member; that means I reached my goal weight and kept it off. Before starting WW, I rarely tried to "diet" because of the whole rigmarole of eating only X amount of this food, Y amount of that, taking pills, or eating prepackaged foods. Even if I tried, it never lasted long. But then WW taught me that such fad diets only work temporarily. Since they're unrealistic, nobody can last long on them; the habits soon break, and then we regain the weight with extra pounds of guilt.
Physically speaking, losing weight is as basic as burning more calories than we consume. How to do this is the complex part, since our tendency to consume too many calories comes from a variety of sources. Part of this can be ignorance. Lots of foods, especially all-natural and organic foods, carry what Hungry Girl (Lisa Lillien, an awesome lady!) calls a "health halo". We can be eating lots of calories without realizing it because the product is "whole grain", etc. We may also be unaware of the impact different types of foods have on our feelings of fullness, such as an apple vs. a 100 calorie pack, or of simple ways to satisfy our cravings, such as eating a single-serving bag of PopChips instead of Lay's. Many of us don't know how many calories we need, either, so we may unintentionally eat too many or too few for our bodies' needs. (It took the simpler breakdown of calories into Points to get me tracking food and activity, so you're ahead of the game!)
With help, however, we can gradually shift our old mindsets and learn new habits of better nutrition and activity. We can accomplish this best with support. It's much harder to go it alone. Mutual support's also important while trying to navigate all the fads and conflicting messages out there. Setting small goals helps, too. I've been maintaining my 125 lb loss since June 2010, but my first goal back in February 2009 was 5 lbs. That's it! Ha ha, at the time, that was plenty to handle.
Of course, there's no need to join WW, but I highly recommend it! You've got the right attitude and would gain such good from it. WW brings tools, support, the structure of a food budget, realistic goals, support, the latest science, and did I mention support? But however you get these things in your life is up to you. Just know that there is a reasonable, realistic way of accomplishing this goal for a lifetime. If you ever want to chat about ideas, strategies, what-have-you, please feel free.
Anyway, please excuse the novel. :) Hope it helps inspire you. You can learn how to live a truly healthier lifestyle without deprivation. Thanks again for putting yourself and your journey out there. It's not easy! God bless you for your humility and honesty.
P.S. Please pray for the conversion of my family and the transition into my new job. Thank you! ♥ Praying for you, too!